Walking on Faith

By faith Abraham obeyed when he called to go out to the place which he would receive as an inheritance. And he went out, not knowing where he was going. Heb. 11:8

I have started to read, My Utmost For His Highest. By, Oswald Chambers. What a great book! He takes a verse, then expands on it. With everything that is going on right now Hebrews 11:8 really "hit home" for me. The chapter is on faith.

by faith Abraham...

by faith he dwelt...

by faith Sarah...

by faith Joseph... 

by faith Moses...

by faith he forsook...

by faith he kept... 

by faith they passed...

by faith the walls...

...By Faith...

Here is part of what Oswald Chambers had to say on verse 8 :

"Have you been asking God what He is going to do? (why yes, Mr. Chambers I am struggling with needing to know!) He will never tell you. God does not tell you what He is going to do; He reveals to you Who He is. Do you believe in a miracle-working God, (yes, I do. I struggle with believing He will do it in my life though) and will you go out in surrender to Him until you are not surprised an atom at anything He does? 

Suppose God is the God you know Him to be when you are nearest to Him-what an impertinence worry is(yes, is it I wish I didn't struggle with it so much)! Let the attitude of the life be a continual "going out" in dependence upon God, and you life will have an ineffable charm about it which is satisfaction to Jesus. You have to learn to go out of convictions, out of creeds, out of experiences  until so far as you faith is concerned, there is nothing between yourself and God."

I don't know about you, but I want that type of faith! I don't look forward to the trials and tribulations it may take to get me there though! *smile* But in the end they will be worth it.

What about you, do you want that type of faith? Do you have that type of faith? Do you fully and completely rely on God and are not surprised at anything He does?

For His glory,

Wait for Him Part 2

"I waited patiently for the Lord, He turned to me and heard my cry." Psalm 40:1

     I wrote my first waiting post months ago. Since then we went to court to ask to move down South. It turned into a big dragged out battle to my dismay. Being allowed to homeschool my oldest daughter was even threatened. Then my husband was offered and took a job up here in NH. We were so excited! We settled outside of court and can continue homeschooling. Then he hadn't even worked there a month and then lost his job.

      Now we are waiting! Do we start the process all over again? It would be a least a year until we got an answer.

     We are waiting for God to provide a job for my husband. We are putting our dreams on hold and waiting for the Lord.

Here is what I have to keep reminding myself: : 

God answers in 3 ways:

He says yes and gives you what you want.

He says no and gives you something better.

He says wait and gives you the best.

     It can be frustrating and tiring. But I know that the Lord has us waiting. If we submit, obey, follow, and wait; we will be made more into His image and be drawn closer to Him.

     A friend gave some great advice when it comes to waiting on my husband getting a job. Just keep doing what your doing. Try and keep things as normal as possible for the kids. And above all seek and trust the Lord!

For His glory,

Wait on Him

And now Lord, what do I wait for? My hope is in You. Psalm 39:7

Our family has gone through many trials these last 3 years. We are still going through some. One of the biggest trials for me is having my husband live so far away.  How do I pray about it?

Lord, what do you want us to do about it?

-"Wait on ME."

What?! That's not an answer. Wait for WHAT?? What should I pray for?

-"Wait on ME."

Do You want us to move down South? Should we continue with court and asking permission to move?

-'Wait on ME."

Do You want us to live up here?

-"Wait."

Do You want us to continue waiting and praying for Joseph to get a job up here?

-"Wait."

Do You want him to take a "leap"of faith and come up without a  job in his field.?

-"Wait."

I know what I want. What do you want?!?

-"Wait on ME!"

Honestly waiting is SO hard! It's not answer I want. I wish I knew what the Lord wanted us to do and could pray for that to come about. I don't like the unknown. 

I am weary with my crying; My throat is dry; My eyes fail while I wait for  my God. Psalms 69:3

BUT, it draws me closer. I NEED HIM for my strength. I RELY on HIM. I WAIT for HIM. I TRUST in HIM.

My soul, wait silently for God alone, for my expectation is from Him. Psalms 62:5

I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in His word I do hope. Psalms 130:5

I still struggle with waiting. I would really like to move on with life. I would love an answer as to what the Lord wants us to do. I would LOVE to buy a  house and settle down. Let the kids build a fort in the yard and grow a garden.

But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31

But, I trust that the Lord has our best interest at heart. And will WAIT on His timing for everything. I will WAIT for Him to change hearts, if any need changing.

Therefore the Lord will wait, that He may be gracious to you; and therefore He will be exalted, that He may have mercy on you.  For the Lord is a God of justice; blessed are all those who wait for Him. Isaiah 30:18

Here is a poem that I found. It took my breath away, I could have written this for this is my heart. Enjoy...

Wait…

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried:

Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.

I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate,

And the Master so gently said, "Child, you must wait".

"Wait? You say, wait! " my indignant reply.

"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!

Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?

By faith, I have asked, and am claiming your Word.

My future and all to which I can relate

Hangs in the balance, and You tell me to WAIT?

I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,

Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.

And Lord, You promised that if we believe

We need but to ask, and we shall receive.

And Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:

I'm weary of asking! I need a reply!

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate

As my Master replied once again, "You must wait."

So, I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut

And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting.... for what?"

He seemed, then, to kneel, and His eyes wept with mine,

And he tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.

I could shake the heavens, and darken the sun.

I could raise the dead, and cause mountains to run.

All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be.

You would have what you want - But you wouldn't know Me.

You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint;

You'd not know the power that I give to the faint;

You'd not learn to see through the clouds of despair;

You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there;

You'd not know the joy of resting in Me

When darkness and silence were all you could see.

You'd never experience that fullness of love

As the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove;

You'd know that I give and I save.... (for a start),

But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

The glow of My comfort late into the night,

The faith that I give when you walk without sight,

The depth that's beyond getting just what you asked

Of an infinite God, who makes what you have LAST.

You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,

What it means that "My grace is sufficient for Thee."

Yes, your dreams for your loved one overnight would come true,

But, Oh, the loss! If I lost what I'm doing in you!

So, be silent, My child, and in time you will see

That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me.

And though oft' may My answers seem terribly late,

My most precious answer of all is still, "WAIT."

Author Unknown

The Lord is good to those who wait for Him, to the soul who seeks Him. Lam. 3:25

So for now I will wait on the Lord and seek HIS face. He is there even in the waiting...

What about you? Are you going through or have you gone through a time were God had/has you waiting? How did you handle it? Was it easy or hard or somewhere in the middle? :)

For His Glory,

Meeting Jesus on the Water

So He said, "Some." And Peter had come down out of the boat, he walked on the water to go to Jesus. But when he saw that the wind was boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink he cried out, saying "Lord, save me!" And immediately Jesus stretched out His hand and caught him, and said to him, "O you of little faith, why did you doubt?"

Matt. 14:29-31

     It has been a long, rough week. I'd say Saturday through Wednesday morning where the hardest. They went by s...l...o...w...l...y! Now that New  Years is over with, Lord willing my husband can find a new job. I hadn't even remembered it was New Year's until everyone was texting us. 

     During this trialing time, I have to keep my eyes on Jesus! In church one men said he felt God leading him to read Matt. 14:29-31. And I thought that is how I feel. I'm trying to stay focused on God, but I struggle with fear. When that fear creeps in, more and more thoughts and fear creep in and I start to doubt and sink.

     I'm still struggling with disappointment and some anger. We are all boxed up and where looking for a HOUSE to rent up North. First off, I was excited to move up North (sad to leave our church though). It's close to ski mountains and they get more snow for the kids to play in. We would have had a house to ourselves to rent. Then we where planning on buying,. I was really looking forward to settling down and eventually buying a home. It's quite and out in the country that way. So even if we couldn't afford to own a lot of land, the kids would still have woods to run and play in. My hearts desire to own a home where we can all be under one roof. I can finally make a place cozy to live in and not have half our stuff in storage waiting. I would love to have chickens for fresh eggs and a very big garden. *smile* We where planning and dreaming and this time it looked like it was going to become a reality. But God has other plans. I am struggling with that. I have been reminded that God has something better planned, then that. Sometimes it feels hard to believe. BUT, I must keep my focus on HIM, not on what I feel or know. *smile*

     I am trying to stay focused on what I am thankful for. Here are a few:

1.      I am thankful for my church family. They have come along side of us to counsel, pray and encourage us. I have several other friends who's husbands are either out of work or have been in the same situation before. I am thankful for these other godly, older, sister's in-Christ to advice and encourage me. I am also thankful that my husband has godly men to encourage him.

2. I am thankful that Josiah (our son) still has medical insurance! He still needs quite a bit of medical care and get medical supplies delivered monthly. So I praise God for provided that for him.

3. We can continue going to our church.

4. We didn't get stuck in a yearly lease (way up North, far from friends and family), then find out a few days later that my husband didn't have a job!

5. That my husband is home to invest in his family. I truly believe that God used this job to bring my husband up here so we could all be together as a family. He did say he wanted a job that allowed him more time with his family! *chuckle* Now he has more time then he bargained for. All teasing aside, he can use this time to build our marriage, our children, our family, etc. Though I'd prefer my husband to not be out of a job, I am thankful that he is here! I have been joking that we have been married a month. Since we have never lived under one roof since, EVER. So it's been a challenge and more so now that we are all home together. But as "iron sharpeneth iron; so a man sharpeneth the countenance of his friend." Prove 27:17

6. Though I don't like where we live, I am thankful we have a decent apartment to live in. I'm also thankful that I only have to share the washer and dryer with the family below us and that is it not coin operated (I had to remind my self of that detail). *smile*

Well, the list could go on for, "my brethren, count it all joy when you fall fall into various trials." James 1:2

Was there ever a time your or your husband was out of work? What did you do? I would love to hear from you!

For His glory,

No source of Income

Good Morning,


It has been a rough night. I didn't sleep much and am exhausted at this moment.

I have so much to share and have been so busy. There has been crazy up and downs to share with you. Moments of worry and moments of joy. Right now we are down. I am scared.

My husband came home early yesterday from his new job (yes, that right NEW job. I have so much to share) and well...informed me that he had been let go!!!

What?!? Say that again??! Yes, that's right we have $2,300 to our name, rent and a car payment that is due and no source of income.

Let me tell you, this is a scary place to be in!

I'll be very honest...I'm scared!! I'm struggling with trusting God. I feel ashamed for struggling with trusting Him. He has shown me over and over again, that he will provide! Why am I having such a hard time with it?

I like to plan and control things. I know that! :( But, God has continually ripped control over many if not all area's of my life. Was it wrong of me to get excited, that we are together as a family, that we where looking to rent a home, and talking of buying one in the near future? No! But I am struggling with not being able to plan our next move!! 

I question why right after Christmas that it happened? If it was before, we could have both tried to get part-time jobs during the Christmas season. We could have taken turns being home with the kids. But then again that is another area of taking matters into my own hands and not relying on God. Did He allow it to happen after Christmas, so that my husband and I will solely have to rely on Him?? 

I think if it didn't happen in the winter, I could see about growing a garden in someone's yard. I could harvest wild herbs for  my natural products on my etsy shop and for my family. Perhaps God has allowed it to happen during the winter, so that I can't and will have to learn to solely rely on Him.

I question, why I haven't sold anything in my shop. I can't expand and add new products if I don't sell any and bring money in! Has God not allowed me to sell anything, so that I will not have that "safety net"? But will solely rely on Him?

I know God is not cruel and would not make things more difficult on purpose  for no reason. So please don't think I am saying that. I just believe He allows things to happen or not happen to teach us to grow and to learn to rely solely on Him and not on ourselves.

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. Proverbs 3:5

It's unsettling not knowing what's going to happen and where our money is going to come from. But I KNOW it comes from God and He WILL provide for us!

For His glory,